I doubt this question can ever really be answered.
2 months.
7 months..
1 year...
4 years....
I can wait and wait, but it never seems to go away. Maybe this is that 'first' that they all talk about - it never really goes away. Is it really supposed to be this painful, this far along the road?
Life changes us in so many ways - sometimes over short periods of time but also during long stretches of time. In either situation, I think I've covered them all --- and so have you. There is only so much conditioning I can do. I do things to move on, but that very night, it still haunts me. The next day I wake up and the dream seemed so real. So real it feels like time has moved us together, but I know the reality of it is not so. It's a relentless pang.
I could write this a millions times, twice everyday - but until I find it or resolve this in another manner (which I am quickly running out of outlets) it will not be satiated.
